Donnerstag, 28. April 2011

Another daytime - another perspective

Today I woke up at 6 AM and decided to let my rats run.
It's like they were in a brand new territory. At least they act like that with all this running around and checking every place they can reach. It's so awful sweet.

This is a kind of heritage for the persons which had died in the first World War. It's on our local graveyard and I found this combination of nature (tree) and human (stone) really interesting. And it's another time using my black and white possibility. I love it.
Has nothing to do with the topic of this post but it's my picture of the day (Although I haven't taken pictures today yet. But that doesn't matter.)

Trust - but better control before you want to believe..

Say, that I am your girl and that you love me only
time, is rushing away and you‘re still not here with me
cool, I should be when you say that you don’t like my hair
why, am I even with you, why d’ I stay?
Our Love is history
cause you don't care for me
I'm leaving, this is goodbye, goodbye yeah
you're never by my side
I want to live my life
this is the end, can't you see it

((c) by Die Happy - Goodbye)

I love lyrics. They mostly say what I'm feeling, thinking, remembering. In better words I could.

Lucky bugs. They have each other and face the world together. Like you and me.

Dienstag, 26. April 2011

I thought love was only true in fairy tales...

..but today I tried to keep my head up and love myself as I didn't find a reason not to do so. My heart yells at me as it doesn't feel right to have such thoughts yet but I guess they are the only way I can become happy and stay like that.
So, my picture of the day is from yesterday as I had no time to take pictures today but it's a happy one indeed:

How beautiful the colors of spring can be, even if the flowers are still sleeping.

Have a nice evening, stranger. I'm going to write the letter to my pen pal in Poland finally so I can drop it into the mailbox tomorrow.

Oh, by the way, strangers are only friends you don't know yet - should be the motto of us all, as the world would be a nicer place than.

Montag, 25. April 2011

Say Hello to the Picture of the Day

So, I finally got a cam, well two at least, and can start my "Picture of the Day" category. Today I went to the botanical garden with some friends and took awesome pictures like this one:

Isn't it awful great? I like how the turtle just enjoys herself on that stone. Oh, and I can take black&white pictures with the camera which is pretty cool.

Sonntag, 24. April 2011

Watch out - it's right behind your back!

Watch out, I'm right behind you, ready to kick some ass!

Today was a very nice day. Eastern, I say, spend it with my family. And liked it. We were having brunch and a long walk inside the Open Air Museum in Molfsee and coffee with cake. Great it is. But I hurt my friend just badly. Told him he doesn't need to come with me and my family on this long walk, being angry at him when I wanted to do as I told him. I guess there it was, my evil me again and whispered in my ear to hate him if he does what he wants. It makes me kind of sick that he doesn't get angry at me because of that as I am angry of myself for doing it.
Finally got another camera. My brother bought a new one and my dad bought me his old one. Or told him to give it to me. Or something like that. I don't know but it seems like I can keep it.

I don't deserve such things. I don't deserve life being good to me and especially I don't deserve his love. I'm a monster.
Oh, don't forget to mention, it's Sunday again and I'm having the blues. I seriously need a free time activity for days like this. Something I can do even when the rats are running around my feet, just waiting to get more food to get bigger. Well, they have a good life here. I just wished my life would be that good as well. They eat, sleep, run around, eat, sleep. And they always have accompany with the others but they can go somewhere else when they don't want this accompany anymore. I hope I'm a pet in my next life, so someone loves me and I can live an innocent life, never knowing what cruel things I can do to others. Wow, that would be great.
Why do I hate myself?

Well, the monster is here now and I can't make it go away so I guess I'm going to sleep, hoping it will be gone on the other day. I have big plans for tomorrow, going on an Easter Egg Hunt and having breakfast with people who like me obviously. They'll all learn how not that lovable I am truthfully.

Good Night.. and Goodbye for now.