Donnerstag, 29. November 2012

Winter is coming

Yay, a new post by me which nobody will see because I probably lost everyone who ever had interest in this one. I didn't even remember my own url properly, so yeaah.

But nevermind.
Today it is rainy and grey and I don't like this. I'm waiting for snow to come because it's gonna be winter.

Soo, I've found this on tumblr and thought I'd post it here for the best.

Since the start of 2012 I have:
Gotten a new piercing.
Dyed my hair.
Ended a relationship.
Started a new relationship.
Been on a long car journey. 
Passed an exam.
Cried on someone’s shoulder.
Had a massive fight with a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Received flowers. 
Had a Valentine.
Written a letter using pen and paper.
Gone to see a therapist.
Been prescribed medication by a doctor.
Read a really good book. (The Perks of being a wallflower..)
Gone to the zoo.
Spent too much money on unnecessary things.
Traveled by train.
Cried over a member of the opposite/same sex.
Spent a day out in the sun getting a tan.
Slammed a door out of frustration.
Had an anxiety attack.
Babysat for a friend’s child.
Had a BBQ.
Gone to the fair.
Gone bowling.
Seen a film at the cinema in 3D. (Yeah, I saw The Avengers in 3D..)
Gone on a date. 
Been the only sober one on a night out.
Helped someone home after they’d had too much to drink.
Stayed up all night.
Talked on the phone for over 2 hours.
Supported someone who’d received bad news.
Watched some kind of live sporting event.
Read an entire book in one day.
Bought a DVD the day it was released.
Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.
Cried as a result of exam stress.
Met some incredible new people. 
Fallen backwards off a chair. 
Broken my glasses.
Cried over someone in my past.
Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.
Thrown up. 
Cried over a film.
Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boyfriend.
Fought with someone in public.
Been in a relationship for a year or longer.

Dienstag, 19. Juni 2012

And now I'm a believer..or else

Just wanted to drop some notes here:
I'm very happy at the moment, so this is good (ok, it's late and I'm tired but BESIDES I'm happy o.O)

I started to do a lot of social network stuff, so if you want to have a look at my weird site, okay, I mean my even weirder site ;), take this:!/stoefff

And my facebook, which probably is known by now:

I'm way too lazy to post here that often but I'm on facebook, twitter and tumblr most of my day so you'll get the whole picture there.

Now is the time for you to scream and run and move so I don't know how to write letters to you, Monika :P

I almost finished my thesis by now but I'm missing out on some books which is kind of freaking me out but I got enough time tomorrow to freak out, now is the time to go to sleep or something like that.

Sonntag, 27. Mai 2012

It's been a while once again..

I think I'm way too lazy to be a good blogger.
I'm so sorry for letting this blog rot - I shouldn't do that.

So, what's new and fresh over here? Let's see.
Johnny, Sam and Max got used to the fact that Rumo won't come back. They still act strangely when they're outside their cage but I guess that's because the toys still smell like him. I wanted to throw them away, they're made of old cardboards anyway, but I haven't found the strength for that. And I'm not quite sure if my sweethearts won't be bored without them. So, ya, I don't know. At the moment I don't even get inside the runout with them because Sam has fallen into his old habit again: he plays nice and then attacks one when you're trying to cuddle with him. It's kind of annoying and scares me.
As it is summertime again, I don't really have the patience to sit down with them for like an hour. The sun makes me like very active or something. I feel like a kangaroo which bounces all of the time and still doesn't get sleepy. It's a strange feeling.

On the private (I almost wrote pirate, lol) section, I've almost finished my Bachelor thesis, there are only a few pages left to write, then it has to be corrected and then I can deliever it and then I'm going to be without work until autumn. That will be a very strange feeling I guess. Well, let's see. I plan on doing a lot of traveling then. I want to buy an interail ticket and go through the East of Europe by train til I reach Greece. And a friend and me wanted to go to Ireland for a week or so to look for leprechauns. I also had the idea of doing some work & travel stuff in Australia. Aaand I desperately want to visit the USA again. So, we`ll see which of these many plans will be realized this or next year and which have to wait for a later time. I still don't know what I want to do after my graduation. It's Business Administration or Cultural Heritage Preservation or something really different. I don't know, still figuring...

Yeah, so here's an older pic, but it's describing today:

Dienstag, 17. April 2012

Time to say goodbye..

als du zu mir gekommen bist, hattest du eine 13stündige Autofahrt hinter dir und eine Vergesellschaftung vor dir..
Und du warst noch so klein, dein Bruder und du, ihr habt auf eine Handfläche gepasst.
Ich habe euch vor dem Leben im Tierheim bewahrt und dich sehr verwöhnt.
Du warst immer der Mutigste, deshalb heißt du auch Rumo, wie die Romanfigur von Walter Moers.
Deine Lieblingsbeschäftigung war, überall hochzuklettern. Am liebsten da, wo du es nicht solltest, wie in Bücherregalen und ähnlichem.
Wir haben nie den Draht zueinander gefunden, den ich mit Sam und Max habe..
Aber ich hab dich immer sehr lieb gehabt.
Gerade weil du so gerne geklettert bist, hat es mir sehr weh getan zu sehen, wie du immer weniger so konntest, wie du wolltest..
Es fing damit an, dass du von Rampen abgerutscht bist und dir die Fortbewegung im Käfig immer schwerer fiel.
Ich hab dann alles für dich behindertengerecht gebaut, die Rampen waren breiter und viel weniger steil und einige Wochen ging es dann auch besser.
Aber irgendwann konntest du dann nicht mehr.
Die Medizin hat dafür gesorgt, dass du viele Gramm abgenommen hast und nur noch Haut und Knochen warst, trotz Käse, Mais, Fruchtzwerg..
Seit einigen Wochen schon wohnst du nur noch ganz unten und deine Artgenossen fürchten sich vor dir und kommen nur, um dir ab und zu mal was von deinem Essen zu klauen. Und du randalierst, weil du dich alleine fühlst und langweilst, aber du kamst noch immer in den Auslauf und hast rumlaufen wollen..
Und nun, zum Schluss, ist auch dein linkes Vorderbeinchen gelähmt und du kannst nur noch auf der Seite liegen.
Mein Herz weint, aber mein Verstand sagt mir, dass es das richtige ist.
Auf der anderen Seite der Brücke warten Mais, Käse und Fruchtzwerg in rauen Mengen auf dich.
Und du wirst wieder toben können. Und klettern.
Komm gut rüber, mein Schatz. Du wirst immer in meinem Herzen sein.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

Freitag, 30. Dezember 2011

So, I got one reader :)

Hello Monika, nice to know you're still reading *winks*
So I guess I have to keep up writing this countdown thing so you're able to learn more about me and to make me remember this year - which I don't, only in some flashes.

day 10: 4 happy events
being at roleplay conventions
waking up with the feeling to know what to do next year

day 11: 4 capitals of people who were especially important to you during 2011

day 12: 4 things you'd like to repeat

I don't know - I wish I would, but I'm not certain of anything right now

day 13: 4 things you're missing

the feeling of knowing someone for like ages
the warm summer nights (which weren't really existing this year tho)
tea with my flat - mate and Jasmin in the kitchen
kind of warmth in my relationships with anyone

day 14: 4 things you like about the winter

the darkness can be kind of comfortable and I like some snow - but not that rainy, stupid shit which is out there most of the time this year

day 15: 4 feelings you mostly had 2011

by reading this blog, I think the most powerful feeling has been loneliness although i'm not really that lonely - and fear

day 16: 4 partys you remember

one year flat - share community with Jane, Christine`s birthday, Falko's birthday and my own birthday of course

day 17: 4 facts

I'm pretty grown - up during this year
I love Falko, I think I'd like to stay with him forever
Therapy hasn't been so bad as I thought before
I'm gonna study Business Administration for real

day 18: 4 things you're happy about 2012

the world finally collapses?
I'll start a new field of study
I'm going to go to Wacken again
Soil sciences will finally be over - in one way or another!

day 19: 4 shitty tests
Haven't had none this year, I assume

day 20: 4 good tests

well, soil sciences went pretty great - I don't remember much of the other tests, but as I've passed them all, they'd be great..

day 21: 4 pictures which say something about 2011

day 22: 4 favorite clothes to wear 2011

ah, I don't know, some warm and dry ones would be alright here

day 23: 4 acts about summer

summer? where? no, actually it was very rainy, very cold but weather was okay the weekends i spent outside..

day 24: A wish which is really important to you

 I want to stay healthy in 2012!

day 25: 4 favorite words

suit up
day 26: 4 facts about christmas 2011

it was a happy christmas
there were no fights
i even wasn't that annoyed by my brother
presents were rare but nice

day 27: 4 pieces of jewellery

 i don't have any - so?

day 28: 4 things you couldn't live without

Ipod, Books, Pen&Paper

day 29: 4 things reminding you of New Year's Eve 2010/2011

lots to eat
sing along with songs i don't even know

day 30: 4 words to describe 2011

very long

day 31: 4 intentions for 2012

I want to find a job
I want to be brave - tell people "No" when I don't wanna do something and talk about my problems with the people causing them
I'd like to stay healthy
I'll fight like a lioness for my relationship with Falko because it's the third year and he said relationships tend to break in the third year!

Freitag, 23. Dezember 2011

Freitag, 9. Dezember 2011


Hello again..
so, I just realized I had made a promise and I broke it again. Damn me.

Well, I spent two nice days on a cruise to Norway and back and I felt really relaxed on that ship - just to feel more stressed and worn out now that I'm back. I'm so fucked up - I can't stop hating my neighbor, I can't stop fearing the workload I have to do this semester and I just can't help myself from feeling lonely when realizing that Falko meets other people and will spend 4 days on a goddamn LAN Party to play computer games and do silly stuff.

Well, it's the 9th of December, so there are 9 things to write about (this "countdown stuff")..

day 01: 4 songs which remind you of 2011

Knorkator - Alter Mann
Edguy - Trinidad
Die Happy - Sleeping time
Blind Guardian - The Bard's Song

day 02: 4 people you got to know this year
Yvonne, Braunsäckchen, Vivi, Jakob

day 03: 4 special events
taking part in role-play convention, winning a trip to Oslo, dancing with Falko on the "Uniball" and my first time in the Gothic Night at Ela

day 04: 4 sad moments

uh oh, I think there were more as 4 this year, at least when I read my blog, it seems like that - uhm, but I can't name special ones.. maybe being a bit lonely on role-play convention without Falko was one very sad moment..

day 05: 4 places you spent most of your time in 2011

Falko's apartment, university, at home, in the park

day 06: 4 things, you'd wish to undo

inviting Jasmin to join the pen & paper group
visiting "Kiel's longest Night"
go on excursions with Jasmin
..I don't know..

day 07: 4 wishes for Christmas

I'd like to stay healthy and happy. Apart of that, everything related to True Blood :D

day 08: 4 things you're currently happy about

My room looks a lot more than my home now.
My boys are cute and healthy.
Falko loves me.
I have the best flat - mate anyone can ever have.

day 09: 4 things you're currently angry about

Jasmin - basically, her.
Soil sciences - because I spend a lot more time trying to figure it out and learn it then I should be.
Putin - it's not a democracy if nobody is able to say what one thinks without being arrested.
Christmas - because it is stressful!