I'm terrible in writing blogs

Hello everyone,

I guess that no one reads this anymore as I rarely find the time to sit down and write another text about my boring life and how terrible everything is etc.
Well, if someone is still reading this, I have an announcement for you:
On the 1st of December, I'll try something new: I'll start with a countdown to 2012 and post a piece of my life everyday.
Things like "Which is the song of the year 2011?" or "4 things you are happy about at the moment" will be uncovered. So stay tuned and have a nice time!

No picture today, I want to go to bed.

It's been a while...

Hello again,

so, my tooth got infected after extracting it as well and it hurt for like 2 weeks or so after the extraction - I think I've never have been crying so much than back then. My only food were painkiller and water because everything else hurt so badly. I've gone rid of 4kg of weight - but don't worry, they're already back as I enjoy life much more since then. You only know what you have when you don't have it anymore, right?

So, my birthday celebration was very, very nice. I've only invited a few friends to have a little sit together and be able to talk to everyone and all my friends liked each other which was one of my biggest worries. Seems like I've finally chosen my perfect group of people who like me. I'm very proud of them and I'm so happy that I'm allowed to love them.

My rats were very sweet during the celebration. They sat at the doors of their cage and looked at my guests and snuffled for the smells of them. Everyone was like: "Wow, how sweet they are!!!" and of course I had to stop them from inserting their fingers through the doors because my rats try to bite than.
Rumo still has this strange wheeze sometimes but the doctor wasn't able to find anything which could cause something like that. He's so sprightly and cheeky though that I'm not really worried about him mostly. Sam makes me worry because he seems to be a little bit more tired than he should be from time to time. Maybe it's just the warmth during summer and now the fall.

Trees are so colorful over here. I love this time of the year and all these different colors nature shows to us. Well, at least, sun is shining at the moment so that's why I can say I love autumn. I think I will be depressed during winter time again. That's not that good at all as I don't want to go back into therapy. Hopefully, I won't need to - keep your fingers crossed for me!

Oh, picture, yeah..

The tooth of wisdom.. or else

Today, there were 3 wisdom tooth extracted out of my mouth.
I'm made out of pain. My mouth hurts so badly, I feel like I can't even talk properly.

It all started on Thursday, when my wisdom tooth in the lower left tooth row began to hurt. At first, I thought everything would be alright on Friday morning, but it wasn't. I've hardly slept and went to the doctor in the early morning. He told me that it was badly infected and I'm taking some antibiotics since then. And today was the "great day" of getting rid of that shitty tooth. I decided to get the last 3 I have extracted so I can be done with that. It was such a fucking bad feeling when he worked in my mouth and since the numbness is over, my mouth just hurts. I know that it is only temporary and stuff, but I'd like to eat a real dinner which is a thing I haven't done since last Wednesday.
And I'm so afraid of injections now as I almost blacked out at the doctors when he gave me this anesthesia, although it was only a local one. Hopefully, I'll never have to get a real injection to black out and get operated.

My thoughts are with you, Kate!

Oh, and did I already mention it's fall? There's the storm, the rain, the everything - and it's too goddamn cold outside for September..

Feeling so sorry

This posting is especially for my pen pals:

I'M SO DAMN SORRY I'M NOT ANSWERING.

I don't know why but my life feels pretty stressful at the moment so I don't find the time and concentration to write letters. Even postcards are hard work to do.
Work and rats and free time and Falko and all this keeps me running around like in a hamster wheel or something. Even at night, I can't really think about myself as thoughts are going round and round.
Only two weeks left, than work is over and I will have more time than I want. But then - latest! - I will write everyone back who's waiting for me to respond.

So, I'm good by the way. Pretty tired and I'd like to have a weekend now as last weekend I've been on a Live Action Role Play Convention and didn't sleep that well and the weekend before I was on this tournament and the weekend before that I've been to Wacken Open Air - it's time for me to rest - I hope this weekend will be alright with that. It's just tomorrow night, there's the Night of the Museums until like 2 o'clock or something but Saturday will be a "stay in bed" - day. Wonderfully wonderful.

Will it stop raining?

It's raining here for like 2 weeks. Right now, the sun came out, but she'll be gone, I'm pretty sure about that.

I've been to my first tournament in Jugger with Falko in Hamburg this weekend. It was really nice as sun was shining the entire Saturday, but on Sunday it started raining again and my mood was like that as well. Felt good to be home again with a roof over my head and 4 walls around me.

Rats are fine. They came out of their cage one day after my last posting, so they probably were confused about being able to get out again. It's nothing serious then and that's good. They are running around right now and they're happy. I have to clean the cage now, it smells a bit. Oh, I love my boys a lot.

I'm in a good mood at the moment. I'm not pretty sure why that is, but it's good that it is. I told myself not to be in a bad mood as that isn't good for my karma and stuff.

Working is fun. I have a new colleague which is very nice. She's studying Ethnology and has a boyfriend in France which makes me feel better because I can see my boyfriend whenever I want to - she can't. It's terrible to think that, isn't it? Well, I don't know.
I have a maybe plan for my future - I want to become a teacher for adults. I'd have to study for 5 years again and do an internship before I can start working but it's a safe job once I got one and I could maybe stay in Kiel afterwards. But I'm not sure if it is the right job for me. I'm thinking about it all the time. Crazy.

Hello again!

So, I'm back from Wacken Open Air now.
Bands were just great and I had a really good time. I shared a tent with Falko which was great as it felt like we were living together and we had really good meals cooked on a camping stove. Every morning there was fresh bread with scrambled eggs and tofu nuggets and every evening there was another hot meal as well. It's unusual but really cool to live like that.
I loved Apocalyptica and Blind Guardian although I never thought to like those two. Avantasia were lame, but I don't like Power Metal so it's not really astonishing. Next year, I will be back, Wacken!
This will be Falko and mine third Wacken then. It's the magical 3 years frontier we'll be crossing.

My rats don't want to come out of their cage today. They had to stay in there for an entire week as I haven't been at home and Jane didn't let them out so they are like shy or confused or I don't know. I tried to attract them with treats but they caught them and ran into the cage again. I'm a little bit afraid that they lost their trust in me or don't know who I am - but maybe they are just miffed that I left them all alone.
I have no important task so I can wait for them to see reason.

Tomorrow I'll start working again for 4 weeks. I'd better have another day off to chill out after Wacken Open Air as I had to clean my clothes and to clear the car out today. But I had told my boss that I could come back on the 8th of August so I have to live with it. It'll be awesome when week has started but right now, I don't want to go anywhere tomorrow morning.

Well, I'm going to peg out washing - the third washing machine and the last one for today.

tweet

Just wanted to say, I got a twitter account now, so you can follow me on http://twitter.com/#!/stoefff now, if you like to. It's mostly about True Blood because I learned that twitter is a great way to learn new stuff about Eric Northman and all that. But I can use my mobile phone for updating so I will do that while Wacken Open Air eventually.

Oh, I baked fantastic corn bread yesterday. Never knew I could but it tasted as great as my memories from 10 years ago told me about it. It's so damn good when it's still warm and fresh. If anyone is interested, I can post the recipe here for sure - oh, as nobody comments this stuff here either, I think I will do it on Saturday or so.

Did I already mention I fell in love with Eric Northman yet? I think I haven't so far, so you know it now. I feel like a little teenager, just silently screaming when I see his face anywhere and I got a wallpaper collection of him, so I see him pretty often - it's hilarious. I'm 23 goddamn years old, feeling like 14. I still love you, Falko, don't be scared! I won't leave you because of a soap bubble. Eric Northman is just a character from a TV series and he's not even real - but sexy. It's like this saying: "To quicken the appetite outside is okay, but you have to eat at home." and that's just what I do.

Enough of this bullshit - I'm pretty tired but I had to share these thoughts before I go to sleep and dream of Eric and me instead of Sookie and.. oh, sorry.