The house of the rising sun

Today was quite nice.
I learned with (my friend) Jasmin for our exam tomorrow morning and we both were pretty good remembering things we were told in the lessons.
Afterwards we had a nice long talk about pretty much everything but our friendship which ended a while ago because of.. I don't know. Maybe because of time or maybe because I'm feeling stressed most of the time. I took some Bach flowers for not feeling stressed anymore - maybe that worked that well I was able to talk to her like nothing ever happened, I don't know.

So, tomorrow there will be my oral exam in soil science and I'm a wreck right now. I should go to bed but I'm that nervous that I'll probably lie there and stare at my ceiling thinking about every question he could ask over and over again until my alarm-clock tells me to raise up, eat and go to the exam. Wow, I haven't been that afraid when I did my graduation which really meant something - this time I could even repeat the test twice.
Sometimes I hate my choice for studies. I'd better stayed at Philosophy instead of geological sciences. Would have been easier and more interesting. But no - Steffi thought in logical terms for once and what happens? She sucks at it. Great, thank you life.

This weekend, Falko and me planed to go camping but the weather doesn't want us to. There's gonna be rain on the weekend so camping would not be much fun. But as there are summer holidays right now, every other possibility like hotels or renting a caravan isn't possible as there are tourists everywhere around. Good for Schleswig - Holstein, bad for us. Well, we decided to see what the weather forecast tells us tomorrow and then we'll see what we can do.

On Friday I'll be in Hamburg at the archaeological museum. I need two more days of field trips to finish my graduation, so that will be one of it. The other one - well, maybe our boss can make that for me. I'll go there asking next week or so. I must write a job application to her anyway. And I need to find a topic for my thesis to start writing it. So many things to do and too less time for everything.
Life's a circle.

Oh, picture for today.. hm.

'cause I feel like this cow, starring at the world with a feeling of "Fuck off, I'm doing it my way!"

Wow, already into July

Hey,
it's already July and I haven't written a posting here yet so I guess it's time for that now.
I'm into learning right now as I have my exams next week. On Monday there will be a test in law and on Thursday it'll be an oral test in soil science. I'm pretty scared of this soil science thing as I just passed the last written exam in it with a 3.7 which isn't very good as 4 is the last mark with which you can pass through it. I even got a headache thinking about it right now.

A good thing about having these tests next week is that I can go camping with Falko on the next weekend as my semester break starts right after the oral test. I will have 3 entire weeks to just hang around - sounds great, doesn't it? I'm not quite sure if it is though. We'll see.

I'm pretty worried about my boyfriend at the moment. He's gone to this Jugger tournament I wrote about earlier about 250km away from Kiel in Oldenburg. He went there this morning at 5 A.M. and I still haven't heard any sign of life from him. Recently send him a SMS but he hasn't answered. I just hope everything is ok - well, yeah, I'm a little bit angry as well as he could at least send a SMS on my mobile phone that he arrived well - that only takes a few minutes and only costs 20 cents which I should be worth.

Oh, I'm still waiting for the summer to come. The last days where hot and full of thunderstorms in exchange. Not really fun. It's goddamn July, it should be hot and sunny and very nice.

My neighbor has sex at the moment and I can everything. She doesn't even try to shut the fuck up, I'm pretty sure. It's like: "Look at me! I got a boyfriend who likes to sleep with me! Hey, I'm here, helloooo!" - well, at least, that's not what she yells but it would be typical. She annoyed me about her boyfriend having so much money and being so great and so on in the last few days. I wish I wouldn't have moved into this flat. I wish I hadn't been her only friend for some months. I just wished everything would be different.
Well, I'm listening music with my headphones now, but I guess I won't be able to sleep that way so keep your finger's crossed they finish in the next few minutes.

I'm not in the mood for pictures, sorry. Have a nice Sunday!

Short update

It's raining again.
I'm sad because Falko promised me a weekend where we'd go camping and isn't able to keep his promise because of goddamn Jugger again. I learn to hate this sport now.
I saw Larry Crowne in cinema. Nice film. Romantic and funny. Tom Hanks is great.

I did it. I ordered a pair of Poi so maybe I'll have a new hobby during summer.

Good night.

I wanna do bad things with you!

Heyya, world outside.

I'm still alive and at least somehow happy.
This weekend I've spend some time with Falko, but not that much as he was on a Jugger trip and I've been on a medieval con which was very nice. I enjoyed playing around with some Poi (without fire, I'm not THAT crazy) and just had a nice time.
Yesterday was the display of fireworks downtown as the Kiel Week finally came to an end but I wasn't interesting in watching but better visited Falko instead. We watched two episodes of Warehouse 13 which is our new series I guess - bye bye Navy CIS. And then went to sleep. I liked awaking this morning, him being my first sight when the alarm bell rings. That's a feeling I could get used to - oh, into dreaming again.

Well, I just organized the first episode of the 4th season of True Blood and can't wait for Jane coming home so we can watch it together. She's at the training and I don't know when she'll be coming back but it feels unfair to watch it without her, I just tried.

I bought beautiful new headphones today. They are pink! and white, which are unusual colors for me but okay when it comes to headphones I guess. And I finally threw away my old bag for a new one. It's black and there are flowers on it and it has a lot of pockets. It's pretty cool but I haven't a picture of both of these things yet so maybe later.

So, that's my little update for now - just wanted to tell I'm alive before anyone gets scared.
My picture:

Let's rock!

Into things I don't care about.

Hi there,

"I could care less" it's just the main topic of this weekend.
My friend or not friend anymore Jasmin who were with me on this medieval market last week wanted me to ask a friend if she could make her a medieval hood with a Liripipe as well. I asked this friend and now I have to discuss what kind of material it should be made of and how much money Jasmin will give her. I don't fucking care. I already have such a piece of art and I'm not Jasmin's mother, so she should be old enough to figure those things out for herself. It's just like the fact she asked me when the medieval market in Schleswig will be instead of using her brain and google. I had to ask Google also, so why can't she?
Oh, and she's meeting a guy she got to know via internet and fell in love with only by hearing his voice. He's 23 and wants to have children already. Which ordinary guy wants to have a family with 23?
I propose she will be married in 2 weeks as she meets him next week. Gonna be great. I don't think I want to know him. Her last boyfriend was such an asshole. Phew.

So, I had some course of the Archaeology of Maya this weekend which was very interesting and now I'm going to visit my boyfriend in a few minutes. Life is getting back to normal, I guess.

Oh, my day of the pic.. or vice versa.

I would love to do what the swans on this picture are doing as world would let me rest then.
Goodbye for now.

Mixed.

It's a pity how much time I spend with doing nothing instead of keeping this blog fresh.

So, for a little impression of what I've done this weekend, I got this picture of the day today:

On Saturday, I went to a pub with two friends of mine and we watched a band called "Tüdelband", drank a cocktail and went dancing in the Pumpe afterwards.
And yesterday I was on the biggest middle ages market in Schleswig - Holstein with my brother, his girlfriend and a friend of mine which was nice as well.
Today I spent some time with my family and some time with my rats which was nice too.

I have mixed feelings concerning the return of my boyfriend. On the one hand I'm really looking forward meeting him again and I am pretty happy to not be alone anymore. But on the other hand I'm enjoying my freedom a little too much at the moment which means I enjoy the feeling of not having to tell anyone what I do at a certain time and I don't have to consider anyone else by planning things.
These thoughts make me kind of sad. It's like it was back then with Andy, I use my brain for judging over my relationship and try to ignore what my heart's telling me.

About my rats, to switch back to the main topic of this blog, they are alive and well. Sam ate an entire egg all alone, so I guess he will be the one who can be rolled soon. Rumo and Johnny are pretty shy, the other two boys came snuggling with me today, it's a little bit sad but tolerable.

Tomorrow I've got to work again and I don't want to. But as soon as I'm there, everything will be fine. It's just stressing at the beginning of the week. But I only have to start at 11 AM, so I have plenty of time to sleep and have breakfast, maybe even coffee before I go there. Sounds great, hu?

Wow, tonight is a night I'd like to cut my head off to stop thinking or to get rid of my heart so it stops speaking to me over and over again. Feel kind of heartbroken.

I don't understand myself. And 'til Thursday, everything will already be forgotten so I can't tell my therapist. Damn.

Back in black to protect the world

I'm back - okay, I already arrived here on Saturday but I had to sleep and play with my rats and go on a car boot sale and spend some time with my parents - stuff as usual although I have been gone for only 3 days.

It was pretty nice in Denmark. I thought it to be horrible as it was Geology but the weather was just that great, we even could run around in T - Shirts on the beach and most of the time it was just sitting down on the beach and listen to what the profs told us. Only the last day had a bad task for us, but luckily me and Jasmin had some help by Anna which does Geology as here first choose and everything was alright.

I miss Falko. Everything was okay in Denmark as I had enough stuff to do to not think about me being lonely or him being far away, on the other side of the Northern Sea. And Sunday was okay as well, although it was strange to be on that car boot sale without him. But yesterday he wrote an E - Mail to tell me he is still alive and fine and now I'm becoming more sad from hour to hour. I read that mail over and over again and was pretty happy he still loves me and thinks about me as he told, but it's so goddamn cold without him here - in a metaphorical sense.

Well, today there was a thunderstorm here and I had a terrible headache before it started. Now that I have slept a few hours and the thunderstorm was here, everything's better but I'm not tired anymore which is not that good as I have lessons tomorrow and I have to work as well - well, I have to write letters to Lauren in England and Kate in the USA, but I can't find any motivation as I wrote the report for Denmark for the last few hours. Sorry, Kate and Lauren (although you're not reading this..).

So, here's one of the pictures I have taken in Denmark, there are more coming up soon.